don't

I don't regret loving you

I shouldn't

but I did

may be I will continue

at times, 

when I have none to blame

but self

when no one's around

to feel that I'm human,

so to err is being me

that moment, 

when I'm all by myself,

none to comfort

I will blame you

for the way things turned out

blaming you for not loving enough

for letting me go,

without any tinge of pain

nor hint of discomfort.

I will blame you for being heartless

for thinking of only self

I will blame you,

for things we did together

for each and every moment

where we shed tears of joy

and of pain 

in each other's embrace

I will blame you 

for every memory I have of you

I'll blame you for loving me

for encountering me in this life

I will blame you 

for everything 

and anything I can imagine about

but the pain 

of the hurt you gave, 

still stays the same

I still keep a hold on that love,

which no longer exists

I'll regret meeting you

knowing well 

most of me today, 

is the result of the bond we shared

knowing you will

occupy a space in my heart 

until my last breath

I can't substitute that,

nor replace

with anyone or anything.

but for my heart to go on

for me to still count my breaths

I'll regret loving you

on days when it's too much 

for me to bear this pain alone

blaming you will lessen the load..

Disco

Do I need the disco lights
Of different colours
To let my hair loose,
for them to go any direction they choose

Do I need a sound system
For the music to play
To sway my body,
to the rhythm of my soul

Do I need a crazy crowd
None of them who I know
To share my high,
what's it like to feel alive

Will I be an eccentric
If I happen do all of this..
In my cozy room
With the playlist on my phone
In my own company
And enjoying every bit of it..

I don't really care!!