Long distance

I don't want to sulk because you are not with me but with your friends right now.

In some party, some restaurant.

Holding a glass in one hand.

With an occasional smile on your face.

And your eyes searching the place.

For any couples here and there.

A guy with his girl.

His hand over her waist.

Providing extra warmth on a chilly night.

Just maintaining the distance appropriate for the place.

His eyes looking drunk.

Drunk on love , hardly the beer.

They steal a kiss when no eyes are on them.

But you do catch that moment.

Your smile broadens .

And the pain in your chest intensifies.

Alcohol comes next to love, to get you intoxicated.

And you are missing out on that.

Another refill doesn't help.

You have to be content with it, nevertheless . :-P

Breathe..

Breathe..

That air stuck in your pipes
Take in
Remind yourself
Breathe
Even if it hurts
Hurts till your core
Till your bone..

Calamity

If you knew what goes on in my head
If you could hear my thoughts
You'll never come close
No where near
Love will be the last thing on your mind

I wasn't made to be loved, may be
Only to love
And dare not expect it in return
Love, knowing my darkness will consume all the light there is
Knowing the serene calm I bring in your life
Is nothing but the deafening silence before the storm

I'm not here for me
I'm here for what, I'm not sure
But it isn't about what I dream or what I wish
What I want, what I long

I'll leave someday
Sooner or later
Leaving nothing behind
And my dear
If you don't stop loving me now
After knowing everything
You have chosen the worst way of self destruction I must warn

I love you
And can't be the reason of all your calamities
Lovers don't do that, not willingly, If I'm not wrong
What good will my love be
If I can't sheild you from the dark things
And the darkest place being within me.

21st August

( P. S  I don't even have the track of right calendar dates . Huh )