Prayers

God fearing child I was
Chanting my prayers, religiously
It was my habit, my routine

You​ made me an atheist
Laughed at my faith
Contradicted each thing with logic

Slowly I gave up on God
There were no more prayers
No longer any wishes

I disowned this mythical creature
And made love my everything
Your love gave me the same strength as those hymns and verses

And then one fine day you left
The ground beneath my feet crumbled
I was left Godless, Lifeless

Darkness loomed around
Insecurities encircled me all the time​, at every place
I sunk deep into​ this gloominess, bit my bit, until I could hardly breathe

My strength, my light
My lifeline, my soul
You took away effortlessly​, as you left

I had no clue, no answers
Nothing made sense
I had lost both, my love, my God

Never felt this helpless before
But
Again I clasped my hands and looked above and
Looked within as I could think of nowhere else to go

Once again, I found my Lord
Not the one of the temples, churches or mosques
This God resided deep within my heart

I prayed daily
With all my power, my will
Light slowly entered my life, and the night had to make way for the dawn

Something which used to be mechanical,
Only for materialism
Turned my life upside down

My God guided me all long
When something wrong was done to me
Even when I was unjust to any

My Lord made me selfless
Helped me to make sense
Of this life and death

I'm no more an atheist
Not religious
Just a spiritual being