Hang on!

You have to reach out

Yeah, you have to

Sometimes to help

Sometimes to seek

The simplest of the things

The not so obvious signs

That subtle cry for help

That everything in nothingness

And that presence of nothing in everything

The deafening silence

That feeling that weighs you down

But look around

Catch the signs, decipher the signals

Square the circles

Don't wait till you cross all the boxes

But reach out

Few around are just hanging 

Hanging by single thread

Hanging for long

Long, long

And then no more..

Doesn't help!

It's not a phase

It doesn't go away

You can't jerk it off

And move on with no trace

You can't just sleep it off

And wake up fresh

The hollowness doesn't just go away

Your, 'others have seen worse'

Be strong, 

With time everything gets alright'

Doesn't help

DOESN'T

HELP

When there's an abyss pulling you in

When your insides sink

With no trace of harbour nearby

Your superficial concern doesn't help

Your be strong, doesn't help

Listen out to us

Comfort us 

Make us know we aren't going insane

Tell us that to be human is to feel

And few humans are blessed to feel with their every inch

Don't show a rosy picture of tomorrow

Take our hand now

And say that 

If it's only today that we got

Whatever it is

We are in this together..

Sitaare

आसमां सितारों से भरा

और तू सर झुकाए चला...

Khidki tale..

Nahi pata tha ki Chandni bhi apni raah bhatak jayegi,

Aur kisi din bhool kar meri khidki se mere kamre tak aajayegi

Halki si, madham

Chandni aur hum

Neend bhi iss aankhon mei kam

Us par woh chandni aur shabnam

Lagta hai ab us chand ko bhi,

hamse pyar hone laga

Ek tarafa pyaar , 

ab ye do tarfa hone laga

Pata hota agar 

ki tum subah 4 baje meri khidki par aate ho

Saare sapno ko hum bhaga detey, 

tumse milne ke baad hi neend ko apna pata detey..

Kitni raatayei tum aaye ho bin batayei,

Aur chal diye mujshe bina muh milaye

Roj milenge ab hum, issi samay wahi ghadi

Ye duniya hogi waise bhi neend mei doobi

 

Aaj bhi milna usi khidki tale,

Apni chadni se mujhe apne baho mei liye..

Intezaar rahega,

Ab bas intezaar hi rahega..

Milenge kabhi..

Milungi kabhi tum se toh ye puchungi..

Ki itne taare hai aasman mei,

Phir bhi chand akela kyun hai?

Ki itni nadiyaan pani se bhari padi,

Phir bhi registan mei koi pyaas se marta kyu hai ?

Makaan bade aur dil chote kyun yaha

Uske dil ka kya jo bhooke pet aur nanga sadak par sota yaha

Kyu aaj bhi hamari samajh choti hai

Aaj bhi rang, jaat aur dharm ki bedi hai

Nafrat hum khule aam jaata te kyu yaha?

Aur pyar kyu darr darr ke karte hum hai?

Kyu har koi naam banane ki piche pagal yaha

Uski seerat kaisi hai kya kisni ne jaana yaha

Kyu mandir, masjid, gurduware mei hi sarr jhukte

Wahi sarr kyu dharm ke naam par kat te

Kyu aaj bhi parivaar hai sirf aurat ki zimmedari

Jab woh ghar ke aadmi se bhi ho jyada paisa kamati

Milungi kabhi tumse toh ye puchungi..

Ki kyu meri hasi kabhi namak jaisi lagti,

Kyu kabhi lagta hai iss dil mei hai koi gehri si khayi

Kyu log surat par marte yaha

Phir wahi surat par hakk na milne par usse mitate yaha

Milungi kabhi tum se toh ye puchungi..

Ki kya pyaar karna koi fareeb hai?

Koi chaal hai ya kismat ka khel hai

Apna milna kya naseeb tha?

Aur bichadna kya uni naseeb wali hath ki lakeeron ka mitna tha?

Milungi kabhi tumse toh ye puchungi..

Ki kya mujhse milna ka pachtava tume hai?

Kya mera hona aur na hona bhi ek hai?

Milungi kabhi tumse toh ye puchungi..

Kabhi toh miloge, 

Hakeekat nahi, 

toh sapno mei hi sahi..

Akelepan

Akelepan ki aadat si ho chali hai ab hame,

Koi saath ho ya na ho, nahi farak padta ab hame..

Waise kaha koi yaha saath nibhata hai,

Beech raah haath chod kar har koi chala jaata hai..

Khamoshi se hi hum batein karte hai abhi,

Hamara haal sun woh bhi khamosh ho jaati hai abhi..

Kisi ne hamare wajood ko inkaar kiya,

Aur kisi ne hamare dard ko nakar diya..

Ab aur kisi se kya umeed rakhe,

Agar rakhe bhi toh kyu rakhe..

Akelepan ab bhaanta hame,

Saath khud hi ka raas aata hame..

Shayad..

Koi mujhse acha likhta yaha

Koi mujhse acha dikhta yaha

Koi mujhse acha sajta yaha

Koi mujhse acha sochta yaha

Koi behtar hai

Koi jyada kamiyab

Koi jyada samajhdar

Koi jyada hoshiyaar

Jitni main hu kya koi aur bhi utna hi main yahi?

Main hoon,

Jaisi bhi hoon..

Apno ke liye apni si,

Anjano ke liye anjani si..

Khayalo mei doobi

Gaano mei khoyi

Chand se baatein karti,

Raaton ko din mei dhalte dekhti..

Pyar se pyar karti,

Phir wahi pyar se dur bhaagti..

Apni dil ki hamesha sunti,

Aur kabhi ansuna kar apne aap se hi lad jaati..

Thodi beparwaah

Thodi masoom

Thodi pagal

Thodi laparwah

Thodi gumsum

Thodi khoobsurat

Thodi chalak

Thodi nalayak

Thodi bholi

Thodi sharmili

Thodi samajhdaar

Thodi anokhi

Thodi tum jaisi 

Thodi unn jaisi

Thodi akeli si

Apni hi duniya mai khoyi si..

Jaisi bhi hoon

Main mai hoon

Mujh jaisa shayad koi aur nahi...

Sangni

Tere aage nahi

Tere peeche nahi 

Tere saath chaloongi

Sangni banna chahthi hu,

Tujh par bhar nahi..

Sukh ho

Ya dukh ho

Kabhi zyada mere

Kabhi kam tere hissa

Saathi hai hum,

Koi gannit ki kitab nahi..

Kabhi galti mei karu

Aur tu sudhare

Teri galti ho

Daant mujhe pade

Kya galat kya sahi,

Jo bhi hai ab sab apna yaha..

Hath thama hai

Bas manzil tak hi apna saath nahi

Ye badan ki ahuti legi zindagi

Ruh se naata kiya hai,

Ye toh apne janmo janmo tak saath chalegi..

Tamasha

Zindagi tamasha nahi

Yaha koi ved aur tara nahi

Nahi majnu ne laila ke liya kapde liye phad

Nahi koi pal bhar tehrne ko tayaar

Nahi dil ye sambhlega iss baar

Bahar se kuch aur,

Andar se majboor toh hai hum

Par kahani ki ending wahi

Aur kahani bhi sabki wahi hai

Laila- Majnu, Heer Ranjha

Sikander ki chadhayi, Lanka ki Ladai

Laila ke pyaar mei, ab Majnu ne liya kapde bhi phaad

Par hum cool act karenge

Heer toh waise hi badi sad

Safarnama toh hai ye sawalon ka

Chhut-Put aashiqui, mein dhalegi ye kahani..

Khudhi haste, khudhi rote

Khudhi khud ko satavenge hum

Sun re sun par beliya, dil ne dhoka diya

Tu aur hai, koi aur hai

Kyun nahi woh jo hai..

Lagta hai ab zindagi ka tamasha ban hi gaya..

Par ye sab jo hai woh mai nahi, sab nakli hai

Tirkit taal se toh chal rahi yahi kahani..

Par Don aayega aur Mona ka sona le jaayega..

Khamoshiyan..

Kitna kuch keh jati hai ye khamoshiyan

Bina ek shabd kahe apni dastaan bata jati hai ye khamoshiyan

Sawaal naye de jati hai ye

Unhi sawaloon ke jawaab bhi suna jati ye 

Kitni gehri hai ye khamoshiyan

Dooba lengi khud mei hi ye khamoshiyan

Cheekhti chilati hai ye khamoshiyan

Khul kar azaad hone ke liye tadap jati hai ye

Pyar bhi jatayei ye khamoshiyan

Dard hazaar bhi de jaaye ye khamoshiyan

Halki phulki

Sau haathiyo se bhi bhari kabhi

Saath hamesha nibhaye ye khamoshiyan

Shabdon jaise na kabhi dhoka de jaaye ye khamoshiyan

Apni si lagti hai ye khamoshiyan

Meri kabhi..

Teri kabhi..

Teri meri khamoshiyan..

Chal aaj yun kare.. ( Reprise )

Chal aaj yun kare

Main khud ko tujh mei paaon

Aur tu mujh mei kahi kho jaaye

Tere bahoon mei jab main aaon

Meri sari zindagi sawar jaaye

Tera haath tham 

Sari duniya se main ladd jaaon

Chal aaj yun kare

Teri muskaan ke peeche jo dard chupa hai

Woh tu mujhe batayein

Aur jab iss jahaan se tera dil thak jaaye

Mere aanchal mei sarr rakh tu so jaaye

Chal aaj yun kare

Tu mera bann jaaye

Aur mai tujh mei kahi kho jaaon

Chal aaj yun kare

Chal aaj yun kare...

Chal aaj yun kare..

Chal aaj yun kare

Main apne khwaab de doon tujhe

Aur tu mujhe apne gam de dey

Teri muskurahat ban jaaon main

Tere saare aansu apne kar loon

Tere saare ghaav bhar doon

Tujh par apni mohabbat barsaa doon

Chal aaj yun kare

Main apna suraj de doon tujhe

Aur tu mujhe apni kaali raatein de dey

Teri rooh ki roshni phir chamke

Tere chehre ki muskaan phir laut aaye

Tere saare darr main cheen lo

Tera aanchal phir hawaa mei khul kar lehraaye

Chal aaj yun kare

Main khud ko tujh mei paaon

Aur tu mujh mei kho jaaye..

Chal aaj yun kare

Chal aaj yun kare..

Friend or foe

Time to ponder 

Time to search

Looked always outside

When the answer lay within

Who can ever love me right ?

If I figure myself wrong on that list

How can I ask someone to love ?

When that someone was never me

How can I love anyone else ?

When I haven't ever loved myself enough

How can I fulfill your dreams ?

When I have left my own dreams unseen

Will I be truly happy ?

If my key to happiness lies with you, not me

How can I call anyone my own ?

When my own thoughts desert me

How can I show someone any light ?

When I hold only darkness within

Love is the answer

Love is the way

I can't pour from an empty soul

Things get filled uptil brim, only then overflow

So I stop my search outside, look within

This time I'll not ask for love 

I'll cultivate, enrich on my own

I have to love myself enough

Before sharing it with any friend or foe..

Universe

The universe listens

It does

Your whispers, your mumbles

Your rants, your love ballads

Your chuckle when you laugh

Your silent sobs

It's a mirror, say few

Few say it conspires

And few say it never cares

I believe in the theory of conspiracy

It's a huge abyss that echoes

Our thoughts, our wants

They get reflected

In decimals

At times in multifold

Optimistic people get to meet optimist

Pessimist often attract their own kind

Positivity begets positivity

Negativity somehow attracts negative vibe

It's a vicious cycle

Cause Universe listens, 

And it does so keenly..

It's our oyster, our cave

Our tree, our lake

Our home

The place we took our first

And will leave our last breath..

Fall in love..

Fall in love..

You'll be broken, battered, bruised

Yet, fall in love

You'll be neglected, cheated, manipulated

Yet, fall in love

You'll be deserted, judged, defeated

Yet, fall in love...

Fall in love..

Fall in love with that breeze of fresh air

With the tiny sparkling drop on the leaflet

And the chirping of birds

Fall in love..

Fall in love the way the water gushes upon the rocks

With the many seashells washed upon the shore

And the way Sun sets far off the sea at horizon

Fall in love..

Fall in love with the many colours of the rainbow

With the different shapes the clouds adorn

And the final drizzle that they bring along

Fall in love..

Fall in love with the bright moon in the dark sky

With the many million sparkling stars which give the moon company

And the galaxies which can't be seen with our naked eyes

Fall in love..

Fall in love with a friend who cares for you at any point of life

With the family which makes your home

And the work that gives you sense of purpose

Fall in love..

Fall in love with every breath you take

Every step you make

Fall in love with the person you see in the mirror every day

Fall in love with the life you are living

Fall in love..

Because it's worth it in the end...

Treasure

He's my treasure..

My sunshine on gloomy days

My full moon during the darkest nights

My guiding angel when I get lost in life's maze

My breath of fresh air in the suffocating crowd

My best friend amongst the fake relations around

My love of the most purest kind, beyond this world of physical desires...

Mind over heart..

I listen to my mind

Follow my heart

As my mind thinks only of my smile

And my heart of all people around

It's all about gain and loss for the mind

And my heart with its bruises

Doesn't detter to love even now

Mind over heart I say

It gets happy, dominance it wants

Heart, stays humble

Yet only it's choices I reckon

I'm a paradox

With my unpredictabilities

I may say my mind rules over me

But if you know me

Truth isn't far..

So, do you know me?

Don't you know me by now...

Checklist

Love should let you fly

Never leave you paralyzed

Love should be the reason for your widest smile

Not the tears that roll out even for once a while

Love should let you be free

Never cage or restrict your ability

Love should bring you peace

Never be the reason for any chaos

Love should be a dream you see with open eyes

Not a mirage which plays with your mind

Love should help you grow

Never a reason to pull you down

Love should make you a better person

Never make you reveal your lowest self

Love should be a spiritual awakening

Not a war which unleashes your inner demons

Love should be pure

As pure as the heart of a innocent child

Love should be fair

As fair as the care a mother has for her child

Love should be simple

As simple as the air you breathe..

Someone

Love someone..

Someone who helps you grow

And never belittles

Someone who questions

With an intention to understand

Someone who reads your mind

Yet values your words 

Someone who lets you make mistakes

And learn from them

Someone who helps you with your problems

Never being a cause of it

Someone who helps you stay in reality

Yet doesn't stop your dreams to take the flight

Someone who confronts you when you are wrong

And stays by your side to make it right

Someone who treats you equal

Never overpowers  or let you do the same

Someone who let's you live your life the way you want

Yet wanting to be a part of it, holding your hand, staying by your side

Someone who helps you fall in love, some more

With your ownself this time...

Versions..

Love I have seen

Of various kinds

The warm hugs of my granpa,

Everytime he visited me and surprised.

In the patience of my father,

For the long hours of wait during extra hours of class time.

The hot food made by my mum,

Even when she was running a high fever.

The understanding by my sister,

Forgetting the silly fights we had last time we met.

The care by my friends,

Who made sure we made the mistakes together.

Finally in the peace his presence brings along,

With a hope to stand together in all the adversities we face...

More

I am more 

More than the words I speak

More than the scribblings I pen down

More than the mistakes I commit

More than the happiness I spread

More than the moon I gaze

More than the stars that amaze

More than the skills I adorn

More than the defects evident

More than the songs I listen to

More than the movies I swoon to

More than the people I love

More than the people who hate me

More than the miles I have travelled

More than the hours I have idled

More than the blessings I received

More than the hardships I surpassed

More than the skin that's shown

More than the soul that's hidden

More than what I was yesterday

Lot more than what I am today...

रंगमंच

हुआ नहीं पहले कभी

खुद से खुद अनजान हूं बनी

क्या मै चाहूं

ये भी ना जानू

ना समझ ना चातुर्य

बचपना अनोखा

छोटी सी भूल

या मूर्ख बड़ी उम्र

सच या झूट

प्यार या दोस्ती

गुजरता समय

या ज़िन्दगी है थम गई

क्या सही क्या ग़लत

क्या लाज़मी क्या अन्र्थ

दिल का खेल सभी

ये ज़िन्दगी ही एक रंगमंच बनी

Far away

I'm sorry

That is all I can be

I was at mistake

So were you

Keeping a count

Will that help any of the two

In your rage and anger

Please don't tarnish

Whatsoever we shared

The helplessness and heartbreak

As a friend

Even I share

Life is such

Not everything is for us to understand

Few happenings are

Beyond us to comprehend

So let us not depart

On sour terms

Cause what we shared 

Doesn't deserve an ugly death

I can only let you know

That I care

By staying away..

Far away

As I can.....

Losing Battle

You don't want to hurt anyone

Yet people get hurt

You don't want to give any false hopes

Yet they get built

You try and keep everything simple

Yet things get complicated beyond your comprehend

You try to be a good friend

Yet not everyone will be ready for friendship

You try to understand them

Yet they pay you a deaf ear

You try to avoid the unnecessary rifts

Yet people gift you those in huge numbers

All you want is peace

Yet you don't get any

Life isn't for you to understand all the time

Forgo this losing battle

Don't look for validation from outside

Know your story

Stay right

Don't explain

Don't plead

Peace will come to you, wherever you are

Stay humble

Focus on your path

Spread smiles across...

Pawn

Fool I became

Joke it was

Every word

The gestures

Were planned and placed

Nothing was true

Nothing surreal

It was a game

And I just a pawn

Word game

Words, words, words

Words alone they have

Mean nothing

Feel nothing

Move their lips

Open their mouth

Things just start at their tongue

Nothing from the heart

Emotional drama they play

Our feelings they use as a prop

Fun they must have

Playing games, it must never bore

Fool they make

Hearts they break

Hopes they give

Shatter our dreams along

Eyes they use

Trap our soul

Have a heartful laugh

Gifting us a sea of tears

Find you whole

Leave you in bits and pieces

Words, words, words

Words alone they have

Whirlwind

Don't question

Please

Don't create a whirlwind

Then leave me in draught

I've silenced my demons

Put them to sleep

Let them rest

Havoc will be created if they rise

Don't question

What I feel

What I ought to feel

I prefer staying numb

Safe game I play you say

Sitting at the comforts of my heart

Aloof from my feelings

My constant blabber

Peace is what I seek

Call me a coward or meek

Decision I've made

I can compromise, but

Hurting someone isn't a choice..

Exist

I exist

I exist in every atom that has ever been

I exist in the void of the longings

I exist in the hug of the forlorn lovers

I exist in the kiss of every mother

I exist in the rays that arise from Sun

I exist in the darkness extinguished by the Moon

I exist in the dirt the wind brings along

I exist in the way flower swings to the song

I exist in the chaos of disturbed mind

I exist in the peace of the enlightened soul

I exist in the sweetness of nectar

I exist in the bitterness of a deceived heart

I exist in the wind, which you can't see but only feel

I exist in the poems ever written on love

I exist in me

I exist in you

I exist in life's very core..

Deny my existence as long as your will

But my presence isn't that easy to kill..

About time

I have an hour to kill

Use it as I will

Nothing much to spill

Not keen to work on any skill

Just gaze and laze around

I'm not time bound

Silence amidst the sound

Here at different ground

But should time I kill?

On my will

Or use it 

and make something 

Atleast a bit

Nah

I'll just laze around

With the rhythm of the song 

And i like this sound

May be a different ground and none around

I have me

And for now

I like this way

You see.. 😎

Adhoore..

आदि अधूरी बातें करता है वोह

बिन बताए अपनी खामोशी समझने की उम्मीद रखता है वोह

नादान है या चालक

समझदार है या बुजदिल

अपनी मुसीबतों से भाग रहा

या उन्हें और बढ़ा रहा

वोह ना जाने पर

अनकही बातें सुन ना हमने छोड़ दिया 

महसूस करने और ज़ाहिर करने में अंतर जान लिया

ये दिल महसूस तो बहुत कुछ करता है

मगर ज़ाहिर वहीं करता है जो टूट कर चाहता है

तो हम अब बस किसी और कि खामोशी को अपने रंगो से नहीं भरते

किसी और के ख्वाबों को खुद से नहीं सजाते

ज़िंदगी बहुत खास है

एक ही बंधन में नहीं बनधती

रिश्तों की पेंचीदा कड़ियां सुलझाए नहीं सुलझ ती

खामोशियों का एक अलग सा ही खुमार है

जो लफ्जों में नहीं अदा किया जाता

और क्या करे इस दिल ने इतनी दफे धोका खाया 

कि अब अधूरी बातें अधूरी ही बेहतर हमें लगती

कुछ शब्द अनकहे ही बेहतर रहे है

कुछ राज़ गढ़े ही ज़िंदा रहे है। 

Why?

Why can't love be just love

Why should we always name it

Why we complicate it

Why should it matter only when promises of life time are made

Why can't it be shared over a cup of tea

Or that bike ride, moon shining over you

Wind gushing through your hair

Why there should be any attainment of physical desires

When it's the soul connection that ever mattered

Why can't the good talks just continue

The long walks

Why should always friendship take the backseat

Why do you need to choose one over the other

Why should it feel it right when you do, wrong when someone else does

Why one should leave when other arrives

Why you have to lie when there's no need to

Why we behave the way we do

Is this the way to be human

Or is it the shackles we have created around

Why is that even love can't set us free..

Why ?

Why ?

Thoughts Rampage!

Helpless I am

Is it true

Or myth

Disoriented, dazed

Curious, anxious, scared

Things I know

I ought to know

That haunt me to the core

Will I ever overcome them?

Or the same I'll remain

Loved and lost

Lost and loved myself

How long

How far

Is this a battle?

Or journey I'm trekking along

Grumpy sad

Messy , why not

Sweet and sour

Salty and hot

Me and me

Bunch of faults

Bouquet of  sweet plots

Silence, uproar

Quiet, deafening glore

Milkshakes, vodka

Which can numb the soul

Poker face

Million dollar smile adorned

Rampage of my thoughts

The second edition 

If anyone interested to keep the score!