vRRRRRoooommmm VVVrrrrrrrOOOOOmmmm!!

Been three years
yet the first day we met
knew you were the one
something made me realize that our bond was going to last long
nervous were those starting days
sometimes I made you nervous sometimes you made me
 

days when I troubled you..
and the days you troubled me
shared sweet and happy memories
along with the tensed ones
was your company when you were with your special ones
made your life simple
yet difficult at times
you adore me I know
but a little more attention could have done no harm

early mornings, late nights
crowded streets, empty lanes
chilly winters, sultry summers
treats with friends
single rides most of the times

the guilt you felt days when I was left bare to the rain

to the scorching sun heat, to the dusty lanes
the disgust you feel when you look at my maintenance
the frequent advices you take from others regarding me
yet how you fail to act

the adventurous moments you had because of me
the times I let you down, and was reason for making fun of yours
the self dependent nature you developed because of me
and how helpless you were made by me

shared so many weird, heart racing experiences
you complete me and I you
you might get new better ones compared to me
but none can replace me for you :-)

mmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

                                     ---- your pleasure (black) :) :P

- mr. RandOm!!

Not so long ago
Seen this girl..
Weirdo kind
not the usual ones
she had a smile..

Not that unique..

Yet it managed to pull..

felt some connection
didn’t bother to express though
waiting for the right time
for her to show some sign

hesitated to proceed..
Make a move
Gave some time..
 

what if she rejects
cant take that..
being precise my ego wouldn’t take that

was I ready to lose her?
Not sure
time passed..so did the days
finally got the courage
spoke to her
in no time we were good friends
just friends though

coz someone took his feelings more serious than I
he confessed before, even before the very idea came in to my mind
 

I have none to blame
not even self
I just took my time..
Time which cost me a lot
And destiny had to play its part

Am not the one to say if the other guy isn't good for her or not
but may be she would have been more happy

if she was not with him, but me

can’t blame her either
ain’t I a fool to expect her to wait for me
when she wasn’t aware of things going on with me

though my feelings for her wouldn’t change
the few memories we shared together don’t seem to fade
nothing lessens the pain that she belongs to someone else not me

may be my love wasn't true enough
she obviously deserved someone better than me

didn’t care to voice my feelings
didn’t put my best efforts
now can’t make any changes in the past
and life goes on
days pass and again..

Not so long ago..

Seen another girl..
Weirdo kind
not d usual ones
she had a smile.. ;-)

( PS. This post is purely a work of fiction. resemblance to any person living or dead is purely co-incidental! :P ) 

will Miss...

those freaky night outs and group discussions before exams

late night gossips

visits to temple just to accompany a friend

listing out our own wishes there

b'day parties at restaurants,bakeries

lunches, dinners the 'ABVP' style

sometimes never cared who paid or who ate

one chips packet dozen hands

homemade food..never bothered from whose home

triples on bikes

hexagons in share autos..

No Saturday no Fridays

the day we get together they all are Fundays

those late night shows

walking on street at midnights

ice creams during early nights

train journeys

trips in buses

nonstop gossips

silly fights

dumb comments

nonstop and contagious laughs

rare compliments

12 solutions for single problem

6 rooms but all found in one

home away from home

people from different places united at a totally different place

don’t know how life will be later..

glad our paths crossed and we had the most memorable days of our life..

this isn’t a poem nor an article..

it may neither rhyme nor make any sense

but my blog would be incomplete without the mention of these special people..

GroWing uP!!

Never knew what growing up meant
Thought it was all about freedom at service
But it’s more a bane than bliss
As a kid had nothing to worry about
Just the sight of dear ones around was enough
Had enough love even for the distant aunt who we earlier never met
But now love for one special person is all that we care
Thought money was the key to happy life
But were unaware of losing moments of life stuck in that business game
Bicycles were the joy rides
But now even the most costly car wouldn’t suffice
Complaining to dad and mom about petty things was much easy
But now when it’s time to step into their shoes petty things no more seem to be petty
Thought homework was the biggest burden and failing a exam the end of life
Eating on time a punishment
Realized eating is much easier than cooking
Unfinished homework better than unclear bills and that those exams never give an actual insight into life
Never knew that at times dear ones would become strangers
And strangers would provide solace
And that there will be more of heart involved than brain

Friendship wasn’t affected by bank balance or society status

Having fun mattered, not d place we were at or what was available to drink.

Being together was enough

Words meant what they actually mean

Didn’t bother to look if they were with double or triple meaning

Was happy living in the present

Had no worries to make future secure or to get our life insured

Had to take care of relations of blood not those brought along with law

Just had to be self, not in a way approved by others.

When mom knew your entire friends list

But now one list is unaware of the other.

Health was taken care of by mom’s food

Had no appointments at the parlors or workout hours at gyms...

when smile was the only make up put on

torn out pants were seen only after a fall

when mistakes weren't too big to be afraid to take responsible for

Happy and peaceful were those days…

Days we weren’t called grown ups…

'dOcToR' i aM !!

 

Been to the hospital several times before

As a patient though

But today it is different

As DOCTOR I am

Did what seemed impossible

Turned a vision into reality

Finally living my dream

As DOCTOR I am

Been there

Seen that...done things

Which is beyond the wildest dreams of even the blood related

As DOCTOR I am

Helped a son

Understood the pain of parent

Relieved the suffering of someone’s sibling

But when my family needs me

It’s difficult for me to be around everyday

As DOCTOR I am

Prescribe medicines

Advice healthy diet

Enough sleep

But skipping meals

Is what I do

Staying awake with the emergencies

As DOCTOR I am

Genetic errors

Developmental errors

Equipment errors

Medical errors

Any error...but first to be blamed

As DOCTOR I am

No weekend

No may day

No season

No natural disaster

Have to be at work any day

As DOCTOR I am

Can’t demand for my own rights

Can’t expect a pay rise

Can’t protest

Its crime to do anything else other than my duties

As DOCTOR I am

Did things which nurses are supposed to do

Worked like ward boy

At times became attendee of unknown

Can’t blame anyone for lack of staff or support

As DOCTOR I am

Sometimes angry

Sometimes selfish

Sometimes careless

Sometimes lazy

Sometimes emotional

As along with being a DOCTOR

A HUMAN I am!

[ PS - nothing personal :p ;) ]

jUst..

Being home for a month. Being employed. Yet idle and even being paid for it.. Wow.. That’s’ something awesome I tell you... No work. No studies. Sleep. Internet. Music. With your months’ pay! Heaven! :D Best time.  Just living in present. Not letting my past trouble me nor getting scared of future. Time for myself. 

Saw few movies. Few good. Few worthless.
Downloaded a lot of music. Had fights with my siblings.

Long chats with my sms friends. Long fights with my best friends.

Well I can’t expect all the people I know to be free exactly at the point when I am. Took time to realize this though.
Meanwhile had fights with many blaming them that they don’t have enough time for me. Cursing my cousins and friends for not getting married when I’m actually free and can attend their wedding. None was left out. Cursed even self for not penning down the stuff my brain is filled with.

Finally giving it a go.. ;)

Life. It’s amazing. Always surprises you. 
You think you have cracked the mystery. Found the secret to happy living. But there is already a new puzzle waiting to be solved.

You get a feeling, ‘That this is it. I want my life to be like this!’.  And whoosh. When you have lived your fantasy for quite some time you get bored of it. New wishes, dreams build up, on their own with no construction charges. 

Say you had this exam. Difficult enough to pass. But bravo you score a All India Rank  in it. Few days pass. That becomes a history. And a new challenge awaits you. 

Something you feared of facing. Comes and passes by without your knowledge. Only if you just don’t let it become bigger than you. 

Coming to people. Each one of us have one life. Dear life. We just love it. And naturally wana live our way. Only one that we have.

Need to be brave enough to do what we want.  Make mistakes. Learn from it. Never blame others. Never regret.

And let others be lucky enough to do the same. Don’t go pestering around them with your advice. If you make any sense and if they are wise enough they’ll understand. If not the result of their own stupid doing will be a lesson good enough for them.

And as the same human you are. You can’t expect yourself to be always right. So taking advices and suggestions at times wouldn’t harm. ( All of this is easy to tell difficult to follow though! :-| :P)
 
Emotions. Keep them in control as long as you can. Coz most of the times when they take over your senses you find yourself more or less like a fool. The Jack- Ass. :P
 
And the most important one - Hope. This one I got from the recent movie I saw ‘Shawshank Redemption’. Which said, “Fear can hold you prisoner. Hope can set you free”.  Hope should be the last thing we ever lose. 

The great souls keep their hopes for things even after their death. Hope that they left the world in a better condition than they found. Hope that their children have a bright future than theirs’. 
Difficult to be that great though. So right now, I just hope that my tomorrow is better than today. Hope that at least few of my dreams turn into reality and that some of my fears turn into my strength! :D
And never depend on others to keep you happy. Take that under your own control. And keep everything simple. That’s’ it! :)

Still loads of things to unravel about the mystery called ‘LIFE’,  need another holiday month, and whoosh a new post! :D