Bitter truth.

I am not rude, not mean
But you and I aren't supposed to be we

I push you away 
You come back again

Please don't make it harder
And turn me into something I ain't

I'm a person drunk on love
Lifetime love

Which falls and rises
Matching the moon with it phases

I doubt my own love at times
I doubt the necessity of my existence too

Love's what I exist for,
Less than most of the times

I pick up fights 
Try to break away

But the person who makes me insane,
and keeps me sane is the same

He kills me
Then breaths in life

Tears me 
Sews me back

He cut himself trying to fix me
The very first day we met

His heart bleeds everytime I weep
For him I'm ready to break
Again, again and again

No God will curse me
No society will punish
If I leave him for someone better

But souls fall in love only for once
Dreams of beautiful future
Life bereaved of sorrow 
Can never bribe us

As long as my decaying body breaths in air
As long as I have my part to play
I will love him more and hate more or less

So I have only one thing to say
You have nothing here to wait for
To keep your hopes alive

Only when you let go off your grip of my memories
You can make new ones

Realise I not loving you in return
Has nothing to do with you, but me

A bitter truth
Waiting to turn sweet only when you move ahead.

Mad love

I see you
With eyes open and closed
You are my dream 
My reality
My drug
My poison

You are the reason that's keeping me alive
And killing me at same time
You are my breath
My heart beat
My thoughts
My vibes

You keep me sane
And make me go insane
You complete me
You are my void

How bad do I want to hold you
Feel the softness of your skin,
The warmth of your breath
The smell of your hair

But a fear engulfs me
The harder I want to grip you,
The more you may slip away.
The tighter I want to hug you,
The more I fear
I may suffocate you with my love.

So I keep myself far
And look from a distance
As the nature's most beautiful and amazing creation spellbounds me with its magic

In awe, admiration
And with pure mad love..

Homeless

Love came knocking on my door

Not once but twice

A door which was shattered and broken

With no signs of anyone living inside

The first time it knocked,

I was too overwhelmed 

Thought it was mere delusion

Just my ears ringing

It came hesitantly though

Not sure if it was at right door

Came and left unnoticed

Unusually the second one was very determined

I tried to shun it away

But it stood there for long, knocking.

Finally I gave up

And let love in.. 

As days passed by

It made itself home

Renewed every nook and corner

The shattered door was now a polished one

And lead to a beautiful home..

Sooner the first one came along, to knock again

Unaware that I no longer stayed alone

Was tempted to welcome it

But who was I fooling?

The home I was letting it in, wasn't just my own

The door which shunned people away,

Was a home for love now.

If it left for new one's entry,

I can no longer call it home again

So I turned deaf.

To avoid getting homeless again..

Soulmate

You'll move on

Just like others

You'll fall in love again

With a new laugh

With silliness of someone else

By the ways they lighten up your life

The way they make you forget the time

And once in a while I may cross your mind

Unexpectedly, on dusting up the old memories

As my memories flash by,

There may be a faint smile across your face

Or no expression at all

But quickly oldies will be brushed aside.

Her chatter will bring you back to present

The melody of her voice will soothe your past wounds

You'll be loved this time

No more of unrequited love

She will be all yours

You can call her 'mine'.

Make love to her

Pour your heart out, though broken

You can take her into your arms

And for once, whole of your world will come into your grasp.

A tear of happiness may roll out of your eye

Or a tear of sadness as my memories interrupt you again.

But her love will be too vast to hold it in your arms

Too strong to be weaken by the unfulfilled dreams and wishes of past.

You'll realise how stupid you were,

To think that love wouldn't knock your door again.

You let out a breath of relief

Hug her tight..

Grasp hold of your world again..

No more trembling of knees, no pounding of heart

As peace fills you up..

And finally your soul will meet its soulmate..

Struggle

And here I struggle to keep up
with each passing day
each passing hour


For the very first time
I hate the beginning
can't each day start from mid
Why is it
you always have to face the morning


Why doesn't the night
slowly crawl into the evening
escaping the sunrise
the brightness


Uncertainty, discomfort
looms at every corner
After a point
you can take a bullet
than die embarrassed


This has become the routine
and with each passing day
I drag along myself
faking a smile
acting normal

a part of life escapes
with each breathe..

When breathe becomes air...

I have loved you truly 
and I know you did the same.
But good things don't last long.
That's their beauty.
Not all love stories end with a forever.
The time we had was the best.
Can't ask for more.
Lucky was I to meet you,
Life has never been the same.
I found a new me.
A better me.
I cannot thank you enough.
But my love, from here our paths diverge.
The things I want in my life
Can't be achieved by being tied down with the thread of expectations.
Time has come to take your leave.
I have loved you and
I will continue to do so.
Though this love will change its form.
You will be my friend for life.
A friendship that will end only after my last breathe becomes air..
Love you!

nirvāṇa

Everything arises from expectations
You expect people to understand you
They expect the same

But life without expectations is bliss
Life without thinking about future
Is just like a beautiful dream

You take each moment as it comes
No fear of any wrong happening
No tears, No guilt

There's no more blame game
Confusions are put to rest
You get to see a clear picture

Past no longer haunts you
Memories bring a smile, no more tears on face
You aren't responsible for others' sadness
Nor do you depend on anyone for your happiness
 

Level of awesomeness is high
You experience every minute in full
No blankness of mind

Just forgive and move on
There is love for everyone
No trace of hate

Only one expectation needs to be fulfilled
An expectation from self
That I will not go back or take a 'U' turn

And follow the path I have chosen

The path of liberation..

Cheers!!